Whew! We've been on a roller coaster for a while these last few months, especially with the firstborn's high school graduation. A lot of things have taken a back burner to getting her situated, dealing with my own emotions and handling the normal end of the year hoopla at our college...banquet after banquet after banquet. One week in May I swear we attended some sort of banquet every single night that week. Yeesh. (While I was happy I didn't have to cook, there's only so much overcooked steak and green beans anyone can handle.) :p
I mentioned the chaos my life had become and the blubbering goofus I had become in response to that chaos to my M.D. during a regularly scheduled check-up. She called my once controlled but now now slowly but surely increasing anxiety symptoms "situational anxiety" and assured me it was normal for me to feel this way at my age with all the changes going on inside my body as well as outside. She also changed my medication temporarily ("situational" anxiety should ease once the chaos settles down, hence the "temporary" change in meds). After a couple of weeks of woozy, and a couple of visits to our family therapist, I feel great again! Thank Goodness!!
I am constantly stunned by the numbers of people who refuse to take medication because they 1) think they ought to be able to handle it by themselves 2) don't believe mental health issues can cause physical symptoms 3) are afraid of the social stigma associated with mental health issues/medication. I am able to enjoy my life...really enjoy it, rather than just making it through each day on pins and needles because of therapy and medication. It's not rocket science, people!
My M.D. also noticed a spot on my leg she wanted me to get checked out with a dermatologist. Now, let me tell you; I come from the baby oil era. Sunscreen and sunblock were dirty words and nobody used those products...you might as well stay inside if you were gonna slather that mess on yourself. When my biopsy reports came back with basal cell carcinoma in the result section, I was sure wishing I'd slathered a little more on myself :(
Basal Cell Carcinoma is the most common kind of skin cancer and lucky for me the most easily cured. I will have an in-office kind of removal surgery in a few weeks and my understanding is that the dermatologist will remove tissue until all the yucky stuff is gone. I'll get stitched up and have a nice scar to remind myself to keep the SPF 45 handy :)
Somewhere along the way I decided it was time to pick up something to read just for fun...I tore into the new Sookie Stackhouse, the new Women's Murder Club mystery, Water for Elephants, Deception, and a few other books on my Nook and Kindle...Reading has always been my outlet...and it obviously still is. I do have quite the backlog of reviews to post, but I'll get them done in due time.
I'm also cooking more...I love to cook but just don't always have the time. I will only be teaching online in June so I plan to stay home most of the time and take care of me and mine 24/7 for a few weeks :)
Last but not least, I have a new baby. Tee Hee.
One of our vets takes care of strays and helps find them new homes. My girls and I frequently stop in to hold, pet, love and otherwise help socialize the animals while they're waiting for adoption.
You already know the end of this story, right??
Her name is Layla, and she is actually a full bred German Shepherd. To offset the cost of caring for the strays, the vet buys a few purebreds at a time from local breeders and re-sells them to established clients. I don't mind paying a little extra when I know I'm not only doing something for myself but also something for our community as well as the homeless animals.
Gemand Shepherds are incredibly intelligent dogs and require lots of time and training. Layla is my new best friend...I've spent so much time with her that I think focusing on her has helped me redirect my anxiety from my firstborn leaving the nest. Does that make sense?
Anyhoo, I'll have a whole Layla post coming up soon...in the short 2 weeks we've had her she's already become a huge part of our lives.
Here's a little sneak peek for you dog lovers out there:
Have a wonderful relaxing Sunday :)